tub thoughts

I sat in the tub

with the water too hot

just like Sylvia wrote

because I wanted to feel sad

and I played the music

the songs that made me

rock my head so slow

I thought of you

in crowded bars

with twinkly lights

sweaty smiling faces

and that jaunty look

your deep sea eyes get

when you tell a joke

you think is clever

and I laugh because

I think you’re cute

not because it’s funny

I think you’re smart

but I’m smart too

so I guess neither of us

is really that special

but I know we think we are

when we sit in rooms alone

our heads too big

at least they stay inflated

with creative notions

that will never come to life

back in the tub I sank lower

I even added bubbles

so I felt very fancy

not letting the mold get to me

with only my red wine as company

I floated my arms above my head

and made artful waves

I think in video cameras

and see a scene on my tv

if only I was on film

not here in this tiny room

I tore off the nails on my toes

ripping them jagged and short

and it felt good but wrong

with the water too hot

just like Sylvia wrote

because I wanted to feel sad

and I played the music

the songs that made me 

rock my head so slow

I thought of you 

in crowded bars

with twinkly lights

sweaty smiling faces

and that jaunty look

your deep sea eyes get

when you tell a joke

you think is clever

and I laugh because

I think you’re cute

not because it’s funny

I think you’re smart

but I’m smart too

so I guess neither of us 

is really that special

but I know we think we are

when we sit in rooms alone

our heads too big

at least they stay inflated

with creative notions

that will never come to life

back in the tub I sank lower

I even added bubbles 

so I felt very fancy

not letting the mold get to me

with only my red wine as company

I floated my arms above my head 

and made artful waves 

I think in video cameras

and see a scene on my tv

if only I was on film

not here in this tiny room

I tore off the nails on my toes

ripping them jagged and short

and it felt good but wrong